One week.

Hi. Today.. MCD. Moth. Curly fries. Andrea. Study. Study. Bye roommate. I miss you already. Thanks for the gift. Study. Study. MCD again. Dang. 2.00pm,Bio paper. Translation. Transcription. DNA. Christmas present. I like. Oh. Christmas. Study first. Bio. Chem also. BOOM. Aduhai. Lord,help me. Love you. Goodbye. See you. Full stop. Period. No comma. Computer. 5 minutes. DONE.

Love. Abby.

Abortion..

Trying to challenge myself to find information on my CTS's presentation.
For some weird reason, I like my topic.
It's 'A woman's right to abort her child'.

To me, it's a very interesting topic to present on as a Christian who's against abortion.
This is because life starts from the moment of conception itself. And isn't it MURDER if you kill a life?
God is the author of life. The Word of God states that the Lord even knew us even before we were in our mama's womb..

Jeremiah 1v5 : " I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb"

15 week old fetus

There are huge debates on this topic because they believe that life of a fetus is only viable at the sixth month and you're able to abort the fetus before 'life' happens. 

Well, I don't agree to that because the that specific life was already in God's mind way long that sperm met that ovum. 

HMMM? 

And for women, it is right to say that you have control over your own body but like I said, it wasn't an accident that the conception happened. There's a purpose. For you and for that baby of yours. You have a little one growing in you. It's a life you were blessed with. Aborting it will definitely get rid of one life and guess what? It will harm you too. 

Love yourself. 

Think about the consequences. Go Google it.

It may be hard especially if it suddenly happens, unexpected or you were a victim of rape, or incest. It is difficult, but the Lord's hand is on you.

Don't worry. 

And hey, if you went through it already, you know the Lord forgives you cause He loves you. 

Have you ever heard of the saying " If you're the only one in this world, He would still die for you cause He just loves you." 

Well, that's true. He gave His life for you.
And hey,you're baby is safe. Your little one is safe in the arms of the Lord. Don't worry.

For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the Lord will take me up. (Psalm 27:10)

Here's a short poem:

My hair is black, my eyes are brown
Mommy, you'd love having me around
It's early yet, the month is one
Though you can't see me yet, I've just begun
One month later, the month is two
I'm still but a part of you
Time is passing the month is three
I'm getting to be someone as you can see
Still so small that I don't have to hide
I'm just a little seed inside
You'll love me mommy, just wait and see
i'm going to make you proud of me.......

.......I've got a new home now, the month is seven
Mommy didn't want me, so now I'm in heaven
It's so beautiful, but now I'm gone
I have no memory to carry on
If I were still there now the month would be eight
I was murdered by my mommy's own hand
I guess this is too young to understand
Good-bye mommy, the month would be nine
I could've been living just fine
Although I'm in heaven, I still have to cry
Because of mommy, I had to die.

Author Unknown

Love your unborn child. He or she is meant to be born into your arms, and grow under your care, and hey, that little one is yours. 

The life that the Lord has placed in you. 

You be blessed:)

It is a hard topic to talk or debate about.

For this class presentation, I would actually want to be in the FOR side. I just want to put myself in that situation of supporting this,just for that 15 minutes.
I might not understand why and still go against it in my daily life, just challenging myself here.

People,appreciate life!
God didn't make a mistake on you, or your unborn child. Remember, everything happened for a reason. Cause future is in His hands.

Love,
Abby:)

The emotions rises, the rain turns into a storm.

A love story that speaks for itself. 

Darcy: I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectation, the inferiority of your birth by rank, so I can start all these things, and I'm willing to put them aside and ask you to end my agony.

Elizabeth: I don't understand.

Darcy: I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand.

Elizabeth: Sir, I appreciate the struggle you have been through, and I am very sorry to have caused you pain. Believe me, it was unconsciously done.

Darcy: Is this your reply?

Elizabeth: Yes, sir.

Darcy: Are you... are you laughing at me?

Elizabeth: No.

Darcy: Are you rejecting me?

Elizabeth: I'm sure the feelings which, as you've told me have hindered your regard will help you in overcoming it.

Darcy: Might I ask why, with so little endeavor at civility, I am thus repulsed?

Elizabeth: And I might as well enquire why, with so evident a design of insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me against your better judgment?

Darcy: No, believe me...

Elizabeth: If I was uncivil, then that is some excuse! But I have other reasons. You know I have.

Darcy: What reasons?

Elizabeth: Do you think anything might tempt me to accept the man who has ruined perhaps forever the happiness of a most beloved sister? Do you deny it Mr. Darcy, that you separated a young couple who loved each other, exposing your friend to the center of the world for caprice and my sister to its derision for disappointed hopes and involving them both in misery of the acutest kind?

Darcy: I do not deny it.

Elizabeth: How could you do it?

Darcy: Because I believed your sister's indifferent to him.

Elizabeth: Indifferent?

Darcy: I watched them most carefully and realized his attachment was deeper than hers.

Elizabeth: That's because she's shy!

Darcy: Bingley, too, is modest and was persuaded she didn't feel strongly for him.

Elizabeth: Because you suggested it.

Darcy: I did it for his own good.

Elizabeth: My sister hardly shows her true feelings to me. I suppose you suspect that his fortune had some bearing?

Darcy: No! I wouldn't do your sister the dishonor, though it was suggested...

Elizabeth: What was?

Darcy: It was made perfectly clear that an advantageous marriage...

Elizabeth: Did my sister give that impression?

Darcy: No! No. No. There was, however, I have to admit, the matter of your family...

Elizabeth: Our want of connection? Mr. Bingley didn't seem to vex himself about that.

Darcy: No, it was more than that.

Elizabeth: How, sir?

Darcy: It was the lack of propriety shown by your mother, your three younger sisters and even, on occasion, your father. Forgive me. You and your sister I must exclude from this.

Elizabeth: And what about Mr. Wickham?

Darcy: Mr. Wickham?

Elizabeth: What excuse can you give for your behavior towards him?

Darcy: You take an eager interest in that gentleman's concerns.

Elizabeth: He told me of his misfortunes.

Darcy: Oh, yes, his misfortunes have been very great indeed.

Elizabeth: You ruin his chances and yet you treat him with sarcasm.

Darcy: So this is your opinion of me? Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have been overlooked had not your pride been hurt by my honesty...

Elizabeth: My pride?

Darcy: ...in admitting scruples about our relationship. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?

Elizabeth: And those are the words of a gentleman. From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realize that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.

Darcy : Forgive me, madam, for taking up so much of your time. 

This is a scene from Jane Austen's novel and movie " Pride and Prejudice"

As the rain poured, the intensity of the conversation increased and the depth of the emotions was just portrayed through the way they conversed. Here is where Mr Darcy confesses his dear love to Miss Elizabeth and she rejects him. 

This is definitely my favourite scene in this movie and what can I say? It was just spectacular. 

The language, the temperament and the personality of these two fascinating characters. 

To me, it's just so captivating. I must say ravish as well.

If you get the chance, read the book and also watch the movie!

Muchlove,

abby:)

Amazed.

"Are you willing to just give Me your time?

I love you and why don't you love me enough? There's always something that's there's for me to Your first love.

Why?

I am deeply saddened. 

Where did you run to? 

One day, you run to Me, but the next, your mind is on something you say "More Important".

Why?

Why did your fire,burn out? What did you burn on?

Why? Where is your love for Me?

Don't you see Me? Don't take Me for granted.

Don't quench Me. Don't RUN away from me!

I just want to be with you. Cause I enjoy you so much. I can look at You and smile.

And just have conversations with you. I love being with You. 

But your eyes looked away. To your disappointments, your worldly life, your business. 

I don't see Me there. 

And you ask, Where are You when I need You? 

I never left. You walked away. 

Don't."

Ahh, my heart just breaks. I am sorry, Lord. I've doubted and questioned You so much! I have indeed become become harder inside.

I am sorry. Sorry that I looked away. Sorry that I blamed You. Sorry that I only used You for what I WANT. Sorry that I didn't thank You. Sorry that I am just that selfish. Sorry Lord. 

Sorry. 

What else can I say? I saw the Lord give up Himself for Me. And He loves me for everything I am. This flesh fail. 

I am returning to this heart and falling more in love and not turning back. 

And standing on this ground, I leave everything behind. 

And break me? Please? 

I need You to break me.

Fixing my eyes on His glorious presence. What else could I ever want?

Thank You, Lord. 

You magnificent presence, Your warm embrace, Your big hands that hold mine, Your heart that forgives, Your grace and mercy.

Thank You.

You are just so amazing!

Psalm 51v17

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

 Love,

Your daughter,

Abby

Without You...

 This song may be old but man, I'm crazy over it. 

Such intriguing lines that captures your heart! 

Words that are so heart warming,well,it just makes your heart want to smile. 

Ah! The books, the shadows, the night, it warms my soul.

The sky opens up over me and you
And you don't seem to mind that we're soaked through
You kiss me in the rain, I forget what I'm moaning about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

[Chorus]
I wouldn't be the same without you
I wouldn't be the same without you

I laugh at my own jokes and what I deem to be clever wit
And you don't seem to mind that I'm so stupid
You kiss me once again, I forget what I'm babbling about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

[Chorus]

I couldn't replicate your touch or love anyone again this much
But I wouldn't be the same without you

I wouldn't be the same
I wouldn't be the same
I wouldn't be the same without you
Without you
Without you
Without you

Her twitter- 

https://twitter.com/#!/brookefraser

Have a great week!

Be you,the beautiful you!

Much warm hugs, nose pinches, hits, I just love you lah!

Abby

Heheheh!

All those lovey dovey post. 


Well, I'm just a lil too shy or too scared to get it on this blog. HMMM?
Should I? Will I? NOW? OH MY OH MY! 


Well, as you can see, yours truly here is an average 18 year old girl learning as the day goes by and desires to be with someone special whom I will fall in love with one fine day. 
Currently also attaining knowledge and experience from circumstances as how the Lord wants me to and observing as well as analyzing situations as well as possible. 


Shows so much how I'm not ready of one. Even though I might have liked someone for the past month or so but I'm so letting go now,BIG TIME! 
Hey, all those emotions and freaking crazy hormones going nuts in me ain't that cool. Liking a guy is pretty sweet in a way but also, gosh, not that easy man!
Especially when he's a godly dude that loves God so much!
Somehow, I struggled a lot. I think it happens to almost everyone as well, you can't deny it man. 
HAHA!
BUT... The best thing to do now is just leave things as it is and let go! 
Learnt so much in cell group this week. About being the right person. Not so much of finding the right person just yet. Also, trusting the LORD for guidance and being the woman after His own heart first than the guy that gets my second look,hehe! 
OHOH! Plus, my cell leader got engaged! Now that's what I'm talking about:)


And somehow, my prospects and expectations on mua self have increased. Well, a good thing for myself I must say. To work on myself. Not for the guy but for me. 
He has indeed taught me and inspired me personally. Maybe that's why,ehehe! 


See, shows that there's definitely way more to learn in this subject:)
Abigail Ann is absolutely open for teaching and guidance,people! :)


And hello,(*slaps self*),especially when you're not ready to be with someone. How lah then? 
Thank you Lord. The best decision for now. 
Definitely taking one step at a time. 


Well,for now..

Brooke Fraser, she's indeed another inspiring Christian singer in the secular world out there. 


And now,Chem! I might marry Chem and cheat on Bio for a bit.
What on earth am I talking about? GOSH!


Love is waiting.
Abby 

Waiting.

He knows my heart.
And I will trust Him for the future. 
Surrendering myself. 
While I wait, I will give the Lord my all. And when it comes, HE STILL HAS MY ALL. 


Been learning so much. So much of His love. So much of His guidance.
For this whole week, these questions have been on my mind. 

Am I willing to trust the Lord in this situation? 

Will I TOTALLY SURRENDER to Him?

Will you give the Lord your all?

Honestly, I thought surrendering to the Lord is so easy. Just say, "Well, here you go God" and everything will be okay..

It's not as easy as ABC, I must say. To me,

it's when you come to a realization that He's the one in control and you're living for Him.

And giving Him everything and having NO EXCEPTS when you place your heart, your life into His Big Hands. 

It's you LETTING GO and LETTING GOD!

You may experience pain, hurts, you may grow weary, but you will instead nurture boldness and confidence. 

Brace yourself. You're in for a ride. A journey to remember and be taught. 

Will you let go,Abby? 

Well, my answer is YES! 

A song that touched my heart deeply last night. 

While I'm waiting by John Waller

From the movie "Fireproof"

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord


When facing the roller coaster ride of your life, the ups and down, trust the Lord. HE WILL BRING YOU THROUGH IT. That's where you will His heart. 
He may not straight away get you out of messy situations which gets you messed up but..
HE WILL WALK YOU THROUGH IT. That I can assure you!
And... You will get up stronger each time.

WAIT. 


Love,
abby:)

No more emoness!

18/11/2011
BOOM!
A very long Friday.
But I am glad I had this Fri. 
Learnt so much! 
Thank you,CF..
Thank you Sokyin, Edd, Steff, Fiona, Wai Nam, Jojo, Esther, Shook Wai and well, all those who helped me with CTS!
ANDREA for the short talk and the walk to get yogurt. HAHA! 
I tricked her! I felt so good!


Aiyoyoyo!
Currentsong: Falling for you by Colbie Calliat (playing on the radio) 
WHY WHY WHY??
Yeah, I don't want going on feeling this way anymore. Might LET GO! 
A happier Abby. That satisfies me. 
The Lord does! He makes me whole!
So,well:
1. STOP EMO-ing!
2. Study the Word!
3. Fast and pray, some stuff I gotta get right with the Lord. 
4. Stop judging. 
5. Forgive.
6. Be more productive in my work.
7. STUDY HARDER. No more slacking! 
8. Get CHEM assignment and report done! Oh,study that too.
9. Laundry.
10. Clean my messy part of the room.
11. Spend loads of time with Andrea Karl.
12. STOP SPENDING SO MUCH!
13. Be a good roommate to one of the nicest girl ever. 
14. Hopefully meet my mummy and dad tomorrow!
15. Wash my cups! AIYOYO!
16. BIO work, Infection Chain, Translation and aiyah, just get it done lah! Get it done by tomorrow(Saturday) morning!
17. Mask time! 
18. SMILE more! 
19. ENGLISH presentation.
20. MEET SIS,oh, I can't wait!:)
21. Return book to the library.
22. Journal time with the Lord. I like!
23. Follow Chelsea to church, BGR!
24. Too much to list down!
no wait...
25. SLEEP!


Get your messy life sorted,Abby.
Fall more in love with the Lord. HE's AMAZING!!


It's like 9:36pm in dear KL, room 12-13, and I'm off to shower. AND SLEEP!
Now,I can't wait for it!


By the way, having a slight crush on FOOTBALL!!
o

w. Watched Malaysia vs Indonesia 

1-0

last night with the cool peeps after Christmas party in HELP and whoa, I'm liking it:) Malaysia won by the way.

 #malaysiaboleh

Well,goodnight you lovely people!
I am a blessed girl.


Love,Abby.xoxo.

Critical Thinking Skills. Period.

Definitely the best!

Well, I will most likely respond.

So true.

Well, put it this way. 

That awkward moment when you're checking yourself out in the MIRROR and your roommate just stares interestingly at you. 

ROOMATE! 

Haven't had it in months. Bank account says HELLO and GOODBYE!

I'll shut up now.

Now,this is what I'm talking bout. 

I like her teeth.

Shoot! CTS later. STUDY! What on earth?!

Goodbye. Rushes Chapter 6. Dang!

Love,You know me.

Second post of the day...

Oh dear.....

I wonder what sighs are these? Happy sighs? Sad sighs? Heavy hearted sighs? OH no sighs?? And why am I sighing this way. You must be kidding me,Abby.

Well, I honestly wonder what's going on this mind of mind? I don't go emo over these stuff. BUT why now?

I never expected myself to be in this situation of non stop thinking, mind messiness, insecure.. What else? Comparing myself? Well, I thought it would have been a better day after learning the whole thing but why am I feeling worse? Well, I know why actually, just a way of speech.

I was thinking of it the whole day and when I read it(secretly), my heart dropped again. 

IF. Choose. Again.

Those three words. 

I told myself I must not and should not think of it in that way but I can't. It just occurs over and over and over again. Never ends in this confined space of mine..
 The thoughts of IT. 

Why? Why does this make me so messed up? WHY? 

I don't like this feeling of being all sad or the feeling of 'I don't know-ness' and sighing a lot. It's not a cool feeling. 

I will be okay. I must be! This cannot continue. 

I know God's in control. I must let Him be in control. He's there for me and IT doesn't need to make me all ughed up. 

I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. I might end this messed up feelings and not continue it. Cause the bar that has been set is just too high. I don't think it is or will be right. For me and IT! 

Thank you,for opening my eyes. Thank you,for showing me it's fine. Thank you for being you! Well,that was the part that blew my mind.

Smile! Get back studying already. Enjoy the Christmas party later!

Thank you Lord! 

Be Abby. 

Loveyoulongtime,

Abby:)

BOOM!

I might have seen it today...


Definition of IT: 
1. Your heart
2. Your passion
3. Your side
4. THE type
5. and loads more to go all listy


I'm smiling because I saw a side of your heart yet not smiling because I can just go, "Oh No" if I were to compare  myself! BUT.... I'm grateful to just know that side, well, that's pretty much what I've wanted all along!
And definitely blessed and inspired after hearing IT yesterday. 
That term was mentioned,the intensity, the gravity of the unforeseen term just startled me and my hands and feet went all cold.
So did my heart, well, it dropped but it didn't go cold, and like the title, it went BOOM in my head! 
For that second there,I did give a thought and wondered,
should I just continue this or just stop where I am, 
And hold back?  


Well, I know Someone is in charge of this situation and ME! 
So I'll surrender!  


When you surrender, well, expect the unexpected cause you're definitely in for an astounding ride with highs and lows and with loads of bumps and laughs and smiles! 


Oh dear. My heart and me, THEY HAVE ISSUES!!


Loveyoubeautifulpeople,
ABBY<3

My Love Story..

.......And when You look into my eyes and I witness your tears just run down Your countenance and You said, "Hey, darling" with Your OH, so good looking smile and then said, "I've missed you, it's been long enough, Abby, come home now, will you? I just want you back despite the unseen past. I just want you back, nothing else." When I looked at You, it illustrated Your tender touch, Your affections, Your warmth, Your eyes that spoke Your heart for me(even of all what I did), Your scars from the nails.

And what you said? You said, "Look at me when I hung on that tree for YOU and even if you were the only one on this earth, I would still do the same. I took it for you. Don't you understand how much I want you back now? Seen it yet?

 Look in my EYES, Abby! Why don’t you get it?!(the intensity of Your voice increases causing me to realize the profundity of Your words)

I told you I will fix you, didn’t I? Why did you doubt me?

Why? Cause you thought I was not there for you? And that made you seek and result in other hearts and solutions, didn’t you? Cause you by no means saw how much I loved you? Cause you didn’t hear me? Cause you felt secure in what you did at that moment when you didn’t feel Me there?

Did you ever come up to me and ask or say? I waited, Abby, I waited.. It’s been a long time, and now, I found YOU!

You want to know how I felt when I saw you there. Well, varied different feelings I must say! Well, firstly, IT was YOU.. That sight of you!

But, your face, your hands, your TEARS, what’s happening? He just exposed you and wounded your precious heart. Why did you leave for them and then get hurt in the end?

Well, Abby. I am here. I desire to hold your soft hands again. And guess what?

 I AM NOT LETTING GO!

Abby, look here, look into my eyes, do you see it? I am taking you back. I don’t need an explanation.

I just long for you to be back in My arms. Don’t refuse. Come back, yeah?”

What could I do? I just stood there, tears streaming down. Zero satisfaction. I felt valueless. I felt lost. I felt open, bare. You just gazed into my eyes (Whoa, those eyes of Yours). But I would look away. I was lost. Perhaps less found. I had no significance. I broke Your heart, how could You just come back and say it will be fine?

                Then you showed me your hands, and your side. And those scars. You said you will bring me home, and should I accept that hand again? You were so willing and just longing for me to get back into those warm satisfying arms.

But I am terrified. Scared. How will things turn out to be?

Two answers I could give:

1.       I would go back, fall back in love. And I will be happy.

2.      Look away, and push Him again. And live a wretched life. And I would just go on being all dirty and worthless.

Well, He promised me so much.

My answer? Yeah, I went back to Him. I couldn’t see those eyes and walk away. I sought after that love. Finally, I got it.

I am in the arms of my Beloved. I am loved. I am rescued.

 He held me tightly, wiped my tears. HE smiled.

He promised to walk me THROUGH the fire. And NOT LET GO!

What a story eh?

Well, I saw His warm and gentle heart today. And I know I am secure in Him and I can depend on Him to bring me forward.

People, I am IN LOVE!

Thank you! And I love you!

I am more than grateful; words can’t utter how I feel.

In love and loved,

AbbyJ