Amazed.

"Are you willing to just give Me your time?

I love you and why don't you love me enough? There's always something that's there's for me to Your first love.

Why?

I am deeply saddened. 

Where did you run to? 

One day, you run to Me, but the next, your mind is on something you say "More Important".

Why?

Why did your fire,burn out? What did you burn on?

Why? Where is your love for Me?

Don't you see Me? Don't take Me for granted.

Don't quench Me. Don't RUN away from me!

I just want to be with you. Cause I enjoy you so much. I can look at You and smile.

And just have conversations with you. I love being with You. 

But your eyes looked away. To your disappointments, your worldly life, your business. 

I don't see Me there. 

And you ask, Where are You when I need You? 

I never left. You walked away. 

Don't."

Ahh, my heart just breaks. I am sorry, Lord. I've doubted and questioned You so much! I have indeed become become harder inside.

I am sorry. Sorry that I looked away. Sorry that I blamed You. Sorry that I only used You for what I WANT. Sorry that I didn't thank You. Sorry that I am just that selfish. Sorry Lord. 

Sorry. 

What else can I say? I saw the Lord give up Himself for Me. And He loves me for everything I am. This flesh fail. 

I am returning to this heart and falling more in love and not turning back. 

And standing on this ground, I leave everything behind. 

And break me? Please? 

I need You to break me.

Fixing my eyes on His glorious presence. What else could I ever want?

Thank You, Lord. 

You magnificent presence, Your warm embrace, Your big hands that hold mine, Your heart that forgives, Your grace and mercy.

Thank You.

You are just so amazing!

Psalm 51v17

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

 Love,

Your daughter,

Abby

Without You...

 This song may be old but man, I'm crazy over it. 

Such intriguing lines that captures your heart! 

Words that are so heart warming,well,it just makes your heart want to smile. 

Ah! The books, the shadows, the night, it warms my soul.

The sky opens up over me and you
And you don't seem to mind that we're soaked through
You kiss me in the rain, I forget what I'm moaning about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

[Chorus]
I wouldn't be the same without you
I wouldn't be the same without you

I laugh at my own jokes and what I deem to be clever wit
And you don't seem to mind that I'm so stupid
You kiss me once again, I forget what I'm babbling about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

[Chorus]

I couldn't replicate your touch or love anyone again this much
But I wouldn't be the same without you

I wouldn't be the same
I wouldn't be the same
I wouldn't be the same without you
Without you
Without you
Without you

Her twitter- 

https://twitter.com/#!/brookefraser

Have a great week!

Be you,the beautiful you!

Much warm hugs, nose pinches, hits, I just love you lah!

Abby

Heheheh!

All those lovey dovey post. 


Well, I'm just a lil too shy or too scared to get it on this blog. HMMM?
Should I? Will I? NOW? OH MY OH MY! 


Well, as you can see, yours truly here is an average 18 year old girl learning as the day goes by and desires to be with someone special whom I will fall in love with one fine day. 
Currently also attaining knowledge and experience from circumstances as how the Lord wants me to and observing as well as analyzing situations as well as possible. 


Shows so much how I'm not ready of one. Even though I might have liked someone for the past month or so but I'm so letting go now,BIG TIME! 
Hey, all those emotions and freaking crazy hormones going nuts in me ain't that cool. Liking a guy is pretty sweet in a way but also, gosh, not that easy man!
Especially when he's a godly dude that loves God so much!
Somehow, I struggled a lot. I think it happens to almost everyone as well, you can't deny it man. 
HAHA!
BUT... The best thing to do now is just leave things as it is and let go! 
Learnt so much in cell group this week. About being the right person. Not so much of finding the right person just yet. Also, trusting the LORD for guidance and being the woman after His own heart first than the guy that gets my second look,hehe! 
OHOH! Plus, my cell leader got engaged! Now that's what I'm talking about:)


And somehow, my prospects and expectations on mua self have increased. Well, a good thing for myself I must say. To work on myself. Not for the guy but for me. 
He has indeed taught me and inspired me personally. Maybe that's why,ehehe! 


See, shows that there's definitely way more to learn in this subject:)
Abigail Ann is absolutely open for teaching and guidance,people! :)


And hello,(*slaps self*),especially when you're not ready to be with someone. How lah then? 
Thank you Lord. The best decision for now. 
Definitely taking one step at a time. 


Well,for now..

Brooke Fraser, she's indeed another inspiring Christian singer in the secular world out there. 


And now,Chem! I might marry Chem and cheat on Bio for a bit.
What on earth am I talking about? GOSH!


Love is waiting.
Abby 

Waiting.

He knows my heart.
And I will trust Him for the future. 
Surrendering myself. 
While I wait, I will give the Lord my all. And when it comes, HE STILL HAS MY ALL. 


Been learning so much. So much of His love. So much of His guidance.
For this whole week, these questions have been on my mind. 

Am I willing to trust the Lord in this situation? 

Will I TOTALLY SURRENDER to Him?

Will you give the Lord your all?

Honestly, I thought surrendering to the Lord is so easy. Just say, "Well, here you go God" and everything will be okay..

It's not as easy as ABC, I must say. To me,

it's when you come to a realization that He's the one in control and you're living for Him.

And giving Him everything and having NO EXCEPTS when you place your heart, your life into His Big Hands. 

It's you LETTING GO and LETTING GOD!

You may experience pain, hurts, you may grow weary, but you will instead nurture boldness and confidence. 

Brace yourself. You're in for a ride. A journey to remember and be taught. 

Will you let go,Abby? 

Well, my answer is YES! 

A song that touched my heart deeply last night. 

While I'm waiting by John Waller

From the movie "Fireproof"

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord


When facing the roller coaster ride of your life, the ups and down, trust the Lord. HE WILL BRING YOU THROUGH IT. That's where you will His heart. 
He may not straight away get you out of messy situations which gets you messed up but..
HE WILL WALK YOU THROUGH IT. That I can assure you!
And... You will get up stronger each time.

WAIT. 


Love,
abby:)

No more emoness!

18/11/2011
BOOM!
A very long Friday.
But I am glad I had this Fri. 
Learnt so much! 
Thank you,CF..
Thank you Sokyin, Edd, Steff, Fiona, Wai Nam, Jojo, Esther, Shook Wai and well, all those who helped me with CTS!
ANDREA for the short talk and the walk to get yogurt. HAHA! 
I tricked her! I felt so good!


Aiyoyoyo!
Currentsong: Falling for you by Colbie Calliat (playing on the radio) 
WHY WHY WHY??
Yeah, I don't want going on feeling this way anymore. Might LET GO! 
A happier Abby. That satisfies me. 
The Lord does! He makes me whole!
So,well:
1. STOP EMO-ing!
2. Study the Word!
3. Fast and pray, some stuff I gotta get right with the Lord. 
4. Stop judging. 
5. Forgive.
6. Be more productive in my work.
7. STUDY HARDER. No more slacking! 
8. Get CHEM assignment and report done! Oh,study that too.
9. Laundry.
10. Clean my messy part of the room.
11. Spend loads of time with Andrea Karl.
12. STOP SPENDING SO MUCH!
13. Be a good roommate to one of the nicest girl ever. 
14. Hopefully meet my mummy and dad tomorrow!
15. Wash my cups! AIYOYO!
16. BIO work, Infection Chain, Translation and aiyah, just get it done lah! Get it done by tomorrow(Saturday) morning!
17. Mask time! 
18. SMILE more! 
19. ENGLISH presentation.
20. MEET SIS,oh, I can't wait!:)
21. Return book to the library.
22. Journal time with the Lord. I like!
23. Follow Chelsea to church, BGR!
24. Too much to list down!
no wait...
25. SLEEP!


Get your messy life sorted,Abby.
Fall more in love with the Lord. HE's AMAZING!!


It's like 9:36pm in dear KL, room 12-13, and I'm off to shower. AND SLEEP!
Now,I can't wait for it!


By the way, having a slight crush on FOOTBALL!!
o

w. Watched Malaysia vs Indonesia 

1-0

last night with the cool peeps after Christmas party in HELP and whoa, I'm liking it:) Malaysia won by the way.

 #malaysiaboleh

Well,goodnight you lovely people!
I am a blessed girl.


Love,Abby.xoxo.

Critical Thinking Skills. Period.

Definitely the best!

Well, I will most likely respond.

So true.

Well, put it this way. 

That awkward moment when you're checking yourself out in the MIRROR and your roommate just stares interestingly at you. 

ROOMATE! 

Haven't had it in months. Bank account says HELLO and GOODBYE!

I'll shut up now.

Now,this is what I'm talking bout. 

I like her teeth.

Shoot! CTS later. STUDY! What on earth?!

Goodbye. Rushes Chapter 6. Dang!

Love,You know me.

Second post of the day...

Oh dear.....

I wonder what sighs are these? Happy sighs? Sad sighs? Heavy hearted sighs? OH no sighs?? And why am I sighing this way. You must be kidding me,Abby.

Well, I honestly wonder what's going on this mind of mind? I don't go emo over these stuff. BUT why now?

I never expected myself to be in this situation of non stop thinking, mind messiness, insecure.. What else? Comparing myself? Well, I thought it would have been a better day after learning the whole thing but why am I feeling worse? Well, I know why actually, just a way of speech.

I was thinking of it the whole day and when I read it(secretly), my heart dropped again. 

IF. Choose. Again.

Those three words. 

I told myself I must not and should not think of it in that way but I can't. It just occurs over and over and over again. Never ends in this confined space of mine..
 The thoughts of IT. 

Why? Why does this make me so messed up? WHY? 

I don't like this feeling of being all sad or the feeling of 'I don't know-ness' and sighing a lot. It's not a cool feeling. 

I will be okay. I must be! This cannot continue. 

I know God's in control. I must let Him be in control. He's there for me and IT doesn't need to make me all ughed up. 

I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry. I might end this messed up feelings and not continue it. Cause the bar that has been set is just too high. I don't think it is or will be right. For me and IT! 

Thank you,for opening my eyes. Thank you,for showing me it's fine. Thank you for being you! Well,that was the part that blew my mind.

Smile! Get back studying already. Enjoy the Christmas party later!

Thank you Lord! 

Be Abby. 

Loveyoulongtime,

Abby:)