Moving.

Hello there!
Well,I have decided to move to another site.
Experimented with other sites and I find the one I just chose more suitable:)
Definitely loved it here,sharing stuff and all.

Just moving over to: www.birdsonmyshoulder.wordpress.com
Booyah!
Love you guys.
Abby

Something for me to think about.

Hello there. 

As you can see by the dates, those times I have posted, well, my posts... 

Frankly I find it really hard to get my feelings on this blog.. It gets scarily weird that some people know how I feel and know what's in me. Truth be told, I find it so difficult to be myself here. Even i real life. I want to remove this mask that's on,well,the many masks I must say. 

Being free to be myself. 

It's something I desire for.I must learn. 

I do have a journal that I keep,that I love writing in,well,yeah,the true me is revealed there..

But I have decided. There are many things that need to come out and open, that's one reason I started this blog. 

So,here goes. Abby being Abby here. 

And as time goes, things will change, more things will be revealed. 

My one true love and my vision will be my God. 

Time to surrender.

The Lord is my strength. I shall not be in want.

Psalm 139 v 23,24

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRmB-a1axkg&feature=relmfu

²³ Search me, God, and know my heart;
   test me and know my anxious thoughts.

Firstly,do I mean this prayer? Do I really want to be searched fully? 

Or do I just say the prayer cause it's just a verse? 

Well,so many things in me that I have to deal with and give up. 

Just so unworthy. 

Holy Spirit,I have pushed You away. Pushed you aside and gone all dry. 

Being tested? 

I asked for it and boom,there I go, falling back. 

And like in the skit, I blame you for everything. For revealing myself. 

Anxious thoughts?

Well,these thoughts of mine. Also,like in the skit, I see all those stuff about me that I just need to give up and let go.Too much of wicked me. And just need to surrender. 

Today,yeah,I definitely saw how much this verse did show and be so real. 

Giving up of all these sick and yuck stuff in me. I thank You for bringing me through this afternoon.

²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
   and lead me in the way everlasting.

Well, there are many offensive ways in me. 

That are just so unclean and hidden and these sins just consume me,inside and that's why everyone sees the fake Abby. And I portray the mask and the face to the Holy Spirit Himself and go,ah,everything;s fine. All good? Really? 

Lord, I ask for forgiveness. I have broken Your heart so many times. 

But You still love me and You would never let me go,thank You. I am utterly grateful and I just know what else to say?

I want to give my all and surrender everything to You. 

And fall in love with You.

I want a relationship with you. Not a ritual or a chore like how I have treated my walk with You so far. 

Committing and giving back myself to You,today,now! 

Thank you,Lord. 

May you be blessed by this video and may it minister to your heart. It may contain crazy amount of jokes. But open ears and your heart to the word that's being portrayed.

Be so blessed.

Love,abby

Hello you!

Hello you,yeah,hehe,you!


Good day! 
Hope you're oh so well! 
Coating my writing with a little bit of coffee. 


Happy Belated Christmas people!
Happy New Year darlings!
(sorry for my late wishing)


Had a pretty interesting day. Hmmm.
Was pretty intrigued with happenings around me. 
Classes has been treating me very well. I like that. 
No time to waste. No money to waste. 
Get your life sorted out,dear Abby. 
Get your resolutions done. 


Watched the movie 'Atonement'. 
Oh dear. It was just incredibly intense and it just escalates from then on. 

The passion. The rage. The hurt. The heartache. The love. The honesty. The dishonesty. The forgiveness. The search. The letter. The infatuation. Oh,not forgetting The library.  
The death. 
How did it end? 
The ending made me cry and just rethinking the moments in those scenes,the seconds. 
Incredible. You watch it:)One of my best movies. 
It would be splendid if I had the novel on the book. 

Well,goodnight people.
Sleep well. 
Much love,
abby.

One week.

Hi. Today.. MCD. Moth. Curly fries. Andrea. Study. Study. Bye roommate. I miss you already. Thanks for the gift. Study. Study. MCD again. Dang. 2.00pm,Bio paper. Translation. Transcription. DNA. Christmas present. I like. Oh. Christmas. Study first. Bio. Chem also. BOOM. Aduhai. Lord,help me. Love you. Goodbye. See you. Full stop. Period. No comma. Computer. 5 minutes. DONE.

Love. Abby.

Abortion..

Trying to challenge myself to find information on my CTS's presentation.
For some weird reason, I like my topic.
It's 'A woman's right to abort her child'.

To me, it's a very interesting topic to present on as a Christian who's against abortion.
This is because life starts from the moment of conception itself. And isn't it MURDER if you kill a life?
God is the author of life. The Word of God states that the Lord even knew us even before we were in our mama's womb..

Jeremiah 1v5 : " I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb"

15 week old fetus

There are huge debates on this topic because they believe that life of a fetus is only viable at the sixth month and you're able to abort the fetus before 'life' happens. 

Well, I don't agree to that because the that specific life was already in God's mind way long that sperm met that ovum. 

HMMM? 

And for women, it is right to say that you have control over your own body but like I said, it wasn't an accident that the conception happened. There's a purpose. For you and for that baby of yours. You have a little one growing in you. It's a life you were blessed with. Aborting it will definitely get rid of one life and guess what? It will harm you too. 

Love yourself. 

Think about the consequences. Go Google it.

It may be hard especially if it suddenly happens, unexpected or you were a victim of rape, or incest. It is difficult, but the Lord's hand is on you.

Don't worry. 

And hey, if you went through it already, you know the Lord forgives you cause He loves you. 

Have you ever heard of the saying " If you're the only one in this world, He would still die for you cause He just loves you." 

Well, that's true. He gave His life for you.
And hey,you're baby is safe. Your little one is safe in the arms of the Lord. Don't worry.

For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the Lord will take me up. (Psalm 27:10)

Here's a short poem:

My hair is black, my eyes are brown
Mommy, you'd love having me around
It's early yet, the month is one
Though you can't see me yet, I've just begun
One month later, the month is two
I'm still but a part of you
Time is passing the month is three
I'm getting to be someone as you can see
Still so small that I don't have to hide
I'm just a little seed inside
You'll love me mommy, just wait and see
i'm going to make you proud of me.......

.......I've got a new home now, the month is seven
Mommy didn't want me, so now I'm in heaven
It's so beautiful, but now I'm gone
I have no memory to carry on
If I were still there now the month would be eight
I was murdered by my mommy's own hand
I guess this is too young to understand
Good-bye mommy, the month would be nine
I could've been living just fine
Although I'm in heaven, I still have to cry
Because of mommy, I had to die.

Author Unknown

Love your unborn child. He or she is meant to be born into your arms, and grow under your care, and hey, that little one is yours. 

The life that the Lord has placed in you. 

You be blessed:)

It is a hard topic to talk or debate about.

For this class presentation, I would actually want to be in the FOR side. I just want to put myself in that situation of supporting this,just for that 15 minutes.
I might not understand why and still go against it in my daily life, just challenging myself here.

People,appreciate life!
God didn't make a mistake on you, or your unborn child. Remember, everything happened for a reason. Cause future is in His hands.

Love,
Abby:)

The emotions rises, the rain turns into a storm.

A love story that speaks for itself. 

Darcy: I have fought against my better judgment, my family's expectation, the inferiority of your birth by rank, so I can start all these things, and I'm willing to put them aside and ask you to end my agony.

Elizabeth: I don't understand.

Darcy: I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand.

Elizabeth: Sir, I appreciate the struggle you have been through, and I am very sorry to have caused you pain. Believe me, it was unconsciously done.

Darcy: Is this your reply?

Elizabeth: Yes, sir.

Darcy: Are you... are you laughing at me?

Elizabeth: No.

Darcy: Are you rejecting me?

Elizabeth: I'm sure the feelings which, as you've told me have hindered your regard will help you in overcoming it.

Darcy: Might I ask why, with so little endeavor at civility, I am thus repulsed?

Elizabeth: And I might as well enquire why, with so evident a design of insulting me, you chose to tell me that you liked me against your better judgment?

Darcy: No, believe me...

Elizabeth: If I was uncivil, then that is some excuse! But I have other reasons. You know I have.

Darcy: What reasons?

Elizabeth: Do you think anything might tempt me to accept the man who has ruined perhaps forever the happiness of a most beloved sister? Do you deny it Mr. Darcy, that you separated a young couple who loved each other, exposing your friend to the center of the world for caprice and my sister to its derision for disappointed hopes and involving them both in misery of the acutest kind?

Darcy: I do not deny it.

Elizabeth: How could you do it?

Darcy: Because I believed your sister's indifferent to him.

Elizabeth: Indifferent?

Darcy: I watched them most carefully and realized his attachment was deeper than hers.

Elizabeth: That's because she's shy!

Darcy: Bingley, too, is modest and was persuaded she didn't feel strongly for him.

Elizabeth: Because you suggested it.

Darcy: I did it for his own good.

Elizabeth: My sister hardly shows her true feelings to me. I suppose you suspect that his fortune had some bearing?

Darcy: No! I wouldn't do your sister the dishonor, though it was suggested...

Elizabeth: What was?

Darcy: It was made perfectly clear that an advantageous marriage...

Elizabeth: Did my sister give that impression?

Darcy: No! No. No. There was, however, I have to admit, the matter of your family...

Elizabeth: Our want of connection? Mr. Bingley didn't seem to vex himself about that.

Darcy: No, it was more than that.

Elizabeth: How, sir?

Darcy: It was the lack of propriety shown by your mother, your three younger sisters and even, on occasion, your father. Forgive me. You and your sister I must exclude from this.

Elizabeth: And what about Mr. Wickham?

Darcy: Mr. Wickham?

Elizabeth: What excuse can you give for your behavior towards him?

Darcy: You take an eager interest in that gentleman's concerns.

Elizabeth: He told me of his misfortunes.

Darcy: Oh, yes, his misfortunes have been very great indeed.

Elizabeth: You ruin his chances and yet you treat him with sarcasm.

Darcy: So this is your opinion of me? Thank you for explaining so fully. Perhaps these offences might have been overlooked had not your pride been hurt by my honesty...

Elizabeth: My pride?

Darcy: ...in admitting scruples about our relationship. Could you expect me to rejoice in the inferiority of your circumstances?

Elizabeth: And those are the words of a gentleman. From the first moment I met you, your arrogance and conceit, your selfish disdain for the feelings of others made me realize that you were the last man in the world I could ever be prevailed upon to marry.

Darcy : Forgive me, madam, for taking up so much of your time. 

This is a scene from Jane Austen's novel and movie " Pride and Prejudice"

As the rain poured, the intensity of the conversation increased and the depth of the emotions was just portrayed through the way they conversed. Here is where Mr Darcy confesses his dear love to Miss Elizabeth and she rejects him. 

This is definitely my favourite scene in this movie and what can I say? It was just spectacular. 

The language, the temperament and the personality of these two fascinating characters. 

To me, it's just so captivating. I must say ravish as well.

If you get the chance, read the book and also watch the movie!

Muchlove,

abby:)